My little holiday miracle…

Some of you know about my brother Aaron, who has been missing from my life for some time.  He’s just a kid, but has made some choices (and had others hoisted upon him) that have left him very little options…  I hadn’t seen or heard from him in months.  I had no idea if he was okay, or if he was safe.  I love him very much.  No matter what has happened, he’s still my baby brother.  So I’ve been very very worried.  As of today I still worry, but at least I know he’s alive.

We were driving home from my friend Amber’s place, when Damon said sharply “Isn’t that your brother?”, his voice became urgent as he continued (after our car got closer to the figure walking down the street) “That’s Aaron!”.  He quickly pulled out of traffic and drove around the block so we could cut Aaron off at the next corner.  When Damon pulled over I bolted from the car and yelled – as Aaron was about to cross the street.

I ran to him and gave him the biggest hug EVER!  I couldn’t help but cry…  standing there on the sidewalk.  So I just hugged him even tighter.

Things haven’t been good for him, but it sounds like they may get a little better soon.  We couldn’t talk  for long – he was on his way to an appointment.  To not know if your little brother is okay or not, whether he is safe, or even if he’s alive, is impossibly difficult.  So seeing him today, getting to hold him, meant the world to me.

Damon pulled the wee girlie out of her car seat, so she got to hug and kiss her uncle too, before he had to keep trekking.  It had been so long, I honestly wasn’t sure if she’d really remember who he was.  At three kids kinda lose a lot of their cognitive memory, so the people they don’t see on a regular basis can get lost into the recesses of their mind.  But she knew who he was… and I was so grateful.

It took me about an hour after we drove off to get the tears to stop.  I will still worry, but seeing him today was the best holiday gift I could ask for.  Hopefully, having this bit of contact, will have been enough for him to remember, that no matter what has happened or will happen, we always love him, and will always be his family.

Aaron, I love you!  We love you!  Be safe, and know that you are always in our thoughts, and that if you ever need us, we are here.

a tiny, tiny, christmas orange

an itty bitty orange


It was library day.  And the librarian gave Lily-Ann this tiny little Christmas orange.  Like my little miracle, it was awesome.

Tonight, hold tight to those you love, and make sure they know how important they are to you.

About Tobi-Dawne

Tobi-Dawne Smith is many things to many people... photographer, canine behaviour expert, equal rights activist, green politician, lactivist, intactivist, writer, crafter, dog handler, third wave feminist, etc. But most important in her life is her role as mother to an amazing five year old. Learn more about TD at follow her blog at get to know her daughter at or check out her work at

Posted on December 28, 2010, in BlackBerry, Family, Nuthin' much and tagged , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 2 Comments.

  1. Aaron unfortunately made his choices. He can make the right decisions if guided with the right people. Hopefully he’s found those people. I’m so happy to hear that you saw him and made contact with him. Maybe that s the reinforcement he needs to choose the right path. I’ve left him private messages so he know s that we care about him – I’ve had no response, but hope he’s read them.

  2. That is such a wonderful blessing. Maybe things will get better and he’ll be in your life more.

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