Missing out, and pouting about it.
Posted by Tobi-Dawne
So tonight’s blog post brings you a bit of a pity party. I’m not a happy camper, and I don’t really feel like posting something that’s all nicey nice. I’m not putting on a happy face, and I’m not going to pretend I feel great about things. The fact of the matter is, I’m upset and I’m sad, and it’s my damn pity party and I’ll cry if I want to.
With this darn Eustachian Tube Disorder, I’ve been S.O.L. when it comes to driving. Generally speaking, it tends to be at it’s worst when I’m in a car. I’m guessing it has to do with the pressure inside the vehicle. My ears snap crackle and pop a ton, and I find it disorientating and distracting. I’m also far more likely to hear myself breathing and my heart beating all from within my head. Driving is just not happening these days – which means I haven’t been hitting the shows.
For those who don’t know me well, I spend my Springs, Summers, and Autumns hitting the shows. My youngest sister and I pack up my vehicle and we do road trip after road trip, all over the place going to dog shows. I LOVE handling. I feel at home in the ring, like I belong there. I’ve shared here before about how much I love showing, love everything about showing… and it’s something I sooo look forward to. It’s chaotic and hectic and filled with WAY too much politics, but I love it.
With this ear issue, I haven’t been to a show since this Spring. I’m going a little stir crazy. The one thing that was making it all okay was the Saskatoon show coming up the first weekend of September. It’s a HOME show. Which means I don’t have to go road tripping, I don’t have to drive. It’s a show I can do… and I’ve been clinging to that like a mad-woman.
Today I logged on with the intention of registering Alice, and possibly Marnie too, for the show. Only, I get to the site to discover entries are closed. Yep. They are closed… and I’m close to tears (the only thing keeping me held together is knowing if I break down and cry the girl is going to ask why, and when I tell her that we can’t go to the dog show she’s going to cry too… because it’s one of only two shows SHE gets to show at every year – and like me, she loves being in the ring).
Why am I so shocked considering the show is fast approaching? Well, I get a constant influx of emails letting me know when different closing dates are approaching. That way I don’t miss entering a show that I want to be at. I never got one for Saskatoon. If I had? I’d have damn well got my entries in.
So that’s where we are. I can’t drive to shows right now. I can’t even drive around town, no way I can drive for hours to hit the shows. So the one show I’ve been holding onto attending, the one show left this year that I can still do… and I missed the entry deadline – by almost a week. And yes, now that the girl is asleep, I’m in tears.
I wrote to the show secretary, to see if there was ANY way we could still get in. I explained that I never received the email about the deadline, and how the ETD has made it so I can’t drive to any other shows… but it’s too late. Pat was sorry, but there just isn’t anything she can do. It’s what I expected, but I had to try.
So yeah. Kind of a lousy day.
I miss my dog shows.
About Tobi-DawneTobi-Dawne Smith is many things to many people... photographer, canine behaviour expert, equal rights activist, green politician, lactivist, intactivist, writer, crafter, dog handler, third wave feminist, etc. But most important in her life is her role as mother to an amazing five year old. Learn more about TD at http://www.tobi-dawne.com/ follow her blog at https://td365.wordpress.com/ get to know her daughter at http://lilyannslemonade.wordpress.com/ or check out her work at http://tdphotography.me/
Posted on August 14, 2012, in Dogs, Just a Note and tagged crying, dog handler, dog show, dog shows, ear infection, ear troll, etd, eustachian tube disorder, perforated eardrum, pity party, sad, saskatoon, Saskatoon Dog Show, upset. Bookmark the permalink. 3 Comments.