Going through iCal today, figuring out what I need to do next, I’ll admit to getting teary when I realized there is nothing relating to Camp fYrefly on the horizon. I’ve been so focused on camp the last six months, it’s an odd feeling seeing NOTHING on iCal in purple (purple is the colour I chose for all things Camp fYrefly related, I’m big on colour-coding it’s the only way to keep organized).
I truly feel that everything I’d done in my life, somehow lead up to my position as camp coordinator.
- My work with youth, and winning the “youth for youth” award in high school.
- Personal experiences and interactions throughout high school, university, and beyond.
- All of my equal rights activism
- My life in politics
- The experiences I’ve had running a political party
- The time I’ve spent in front of the camera at media events
- My time behind the camera, appreciating the inherent beauty in all people
- The negative and positive experiences of owning my own business(es)
- The fact that I’m so crafty/artsy
- My being so “sex positive” and open to talking about pretty much anything
- All of the years I’ve spent studying and teaching operant conditioning
- Even becoming a mom
All of it, it all led to the moments at camp. Those vital, amazing, life changing, life AFFIRMING moments. And now, looking at my calendar, knowing that it’s over… well… I’d admit to there being an immense sense of loss. Sure, I still have lots of work before camp stuff will actually be done with. Lots of little detail things, invoices, bills, receipts, paperwork, reports, etc. And I still have all of my amazing, incredible, stupendous campers – none of whom I intend to lose track of, and all whom I hope will be up for the occasional get-together/reunion. But there is still a part of me mourning, seeing nothing actually scheduled in. Nothing purple on my calendar. It’s a feeling I didn’t expect, but there it is, just the same.
I feel lonely.
Well… I got home last night around 7:00. And crashed at the same time I put my daughter to sleep (I usually stay up for another four hours afterwards). Then today? Today I slept. All day. I’m sick. So it’s not just that I was being lazy or that I was feeling depressed. I’m sick, and my body needs to begin repairs…. so I slept. A lot. And I’m super grateful to my husband who took the girlie to the zoo, and then out again shortly after supper so that I could have the multiple power naps I needed. And yes, I’m now preparing to sleep again.
What a crazy week, and even crazier weekend. I really do need time to just process everything. But, I can say two things for certain: Camp fYrefly Saskatchewan freakin’ rocks! and I miss my campers and my leadership team. You guys are freakin’ amazing!!!! Love you all!
Now, off to bed.
Just got home about an hour ago now, put the girlie to sleep, and am now starting to crash myself. It was a super long day starting at 5:30 this morning and doing some mega intensive training and bonding with the pod leaders, pod volunteers, and live-in adult volunteers. After I hit “publish” I’m going to sleep. It’s another super early morning (though I may try to aim for a 6 am wake-up over the 5:30). But then it’s here! Camp fYrefly!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!
Two days left, two days left, two days left… that’s it. Only two days left! ACK!
I’ve been going over my list every day for the last few days. I’ve got this covered.
Monday – preparing for Camp fYrefly.
Tuesday – doctors appointment (nothings wrong, just a check up) and preparing for Camp fYrefly.
Wednesday – training Youth Leaders and Adult Pod Volunteers for Camp fYrefly.
Thursday – CAMP freakin’ FYREFLY!
Oh, and on a completely unrelated note… I still have no idea how to actually style my hair. LMAO Working on it though. Hopefully will look less “Buckwheat-ish” by Thursday. LOL There’s a sharp learning curve when you’ve NEVER had super short hair before. 😉
With little more than a week to go before Camp fYrefly Saskatchewan starts seeing campers and volunteers arriving in the city, I’m finding my schedule jam packed with all sorts of details that need attention. It’s super exciting knowing how close we are getting – but also a little nerve racking too. Months and months of work about to culminate in one absolutely fantabulous event. 🙂 I’m sooo excited, but I’m also stressed.
Want a little honesty? I know that even if something goes wrong, even if something ends up forgotten, even if some strange thing pops up at the last moment? I know that it will all be just fine. We’ll handle it. And everything will still be amazing.
Now… to those campers who have neglected getting their acceptance packages in by the deadline? Yes YOU. Get your butts in gear. I know where you live! LMAO Don’t make me come knock on your door. If I have to wear my mean face, well gol’darn it, I’ll pull up my big girl panties and put on my mean face. But I won’t like it – and you’ll have to pay if you make me do it. 😉 So get your paperwork in!!!! Like, now! 😛
…are getting sick of reading about my exhaustion? Because you know what? I’m exhausted. 😉
I can’t help it. After working at home all day, picking the girlie up after she got home from the lake with my mom, then attending TWO board meetings? Well… I’m exhausted. And I’m likely to stay that way – at least until the end of August. LOL At which point I may consider going into hibernation until Spring. I’ll keep you posted.
Things with Camp fYrefly are progressing. It’s starting to get super excited. We’ve been looking at applications, choosing campers, youth leaders, and adult volunteers… We have a program in place with amazing presenters. We’re filling swag bags, and buying gifts. We’re working on our program booklet, and planning for daily yoga sessions. We’re getting things ready for what will be the best leadership retreat yet! I am SOOO excited, are you?
I just got home from a Programming Committee meeting with Camp fYrefly SK. Super exciting things on the horizon. The next couple months are going to be pretty amazing, and camp this year really is going to the best yet. If you haven’t got your application filled out yet, I strongly urge you to hop on over to the Camp fYrefly website as soon as you’re done reading this post.
Application deadline for Youth Leaders and Adult Volunteers is June 15th – that’s only a couple of weeks away. And the camper deadline (though it hasn’t been officially set yet) will not be much past that. August may feel like a world away at this point, but it’s closer than you think.
It’s going to be a crazy busy Summer for me. So very much to do, but such exciting work towards such an amazing end!
All of the applications for Camp fYrefly are now live on our website. Haven’t familiarized yourself with us and what we’re all about? I’d say it’s time you did!
Camp fYrefly is all about youth empowerment! It’s about providing opportunities for growth, friendships, and once in a lifetime experiences. It’s about training and preparing tomorrows leaders. It’s about giving kids (and young adults) a chance to thrive.
I’ll say it loudly and with emphasis: I AM DAMN PROUD TO BE INVOLVED! Seriously.
Camp fYrefly gives at-risk youth a chance to come together, and learn just how incredible they are. And just how world-changing they can be. It’s our goal to give them the tools to shape their tomorrows, and to be a light in the dark for others who might be alone and hurting as they once were.
So head on over to our website: http://www.usask.ca/education/fyrefly/ Find out how you can get involved!
To old to be a camper? Why not take part as an Adult Leader?
Still young enough to be a camper, but really wanting to stretch yourself and take a leadership role? Then being a Youth Leader might be the role for you.
Are you an artist or creative professional and want to teach a seminar or skill building workshop. Despite being past the deadline, we’re still willing to consider additional workshops.
Want to do something, but don’t feel you have the time? Why not donate? for $300 you can cover the fees for one camper… no youth will be turned away because they can’t afford to come.
Camp fYrefly Saskatchewan is one of only a handful of programs like this WORLD WIDE! So don’t think you can’t apply because you aren’t from Saskatoon. Fill out an application, and let us know if you need a travel bursary. We’ll make things work!
So yeah! Swing on by the website, and check us out! Got questions? Let me know. That’s what I’m here for.
Today I have so many feelings coursing through… Life for me has rarely been easy. Seriously. But today, it kind of feels like perhaps karma may not be the bitch some folks make her out to be.
I am the new Camp Coordinator for the 2011 Camp fYrefly in Saskatchewan. For some, that probably doesn’t mean a darn thing. For others, I’m sure you’re jumping up and down with joy for me.
Camp fYrefly is an amazing thing. It’s a leadership retreat for LGBTTQ youth. Through the course of the “camp”, kids learn how to become agents for change, how to change attitudes, how to inspire others and themselves. At risk youth, go from the threat of becoming a statistic to becoming our future. A future of strong, healthy, empathetic, and driven people… the kinds of people who can change our world for the better.
So… am I excited? You bet your ass!
I never would have dreamed that I’d have the chance to become involved, especially in such an instrumental way, with something so incredible. Yet here I am. Maybe, sometimes, good things DO happen to good people. Sometimes years of struggle are rewarded.
This is going to be an amazing Summer.
Am I going to be busy? TOTALLY.
With my photography, dog show weekends, and Camp fYrefly… all in addition to being a mom and my commitments with the Green Party? I’ll probably be run off my feet. But it’s going to be amazing. Life changing. Sometimes finding joy is easy, and sometimes you have to shake things up a bit… sometimes you have go out and grab it. So I did. And I’m so excited to get started. Today, everything seems within the realm of possibilities.
I am good enough, and now I know others see that too.
For more information on Camp fYrefly visit: http://www.usask.ca/education/fyrefly/