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Seek no more

On Thursday, February 28th I felt a sudden need to light a candle and to send love out into the universe.  I didn’t know why I needed to, I just knew that I had to.  So at 4:30 I let my daughter choose a candle and we lit it together.  Shortly after that things became all to clear.

Bran Everseeking, who was known to some as Thomas Dunbar, was a treasured friend.  At 4:15 his wife, Naomi, had posted to FB that he was having a heart attack.  It wasn’t until later that evening I would learn of it…  after seeing another post she made at 6:04.  Bran had left this world for the next.  Gratefully I didn’t learn the news until after Lily-Ann had gone to sleep as with it came a slurry of tears.  It honestly felt like some cruel joke.

The last couple of days have been absolutely draining, and I really have no words – which is why this post is more dry facts than anything else.  I’m simply trying to relay information without breaking down again.  For now all I can share are images, something I believe Bran (as a fellow photographer) would appreciate.

The candle I lit at about 4:30 on Thursday, burned until 4:54 Saturday morning.  I know this, because the change in light woke me from a troubled sleep and I saw the last ember go out.

Goodnight my dear, dear friend.  Know that love follows you from this life into the next.  Seek no more.

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Infant & Pregnancy Loss Awareness Day

A Chai Latte from Caffe Sola

 

So this image may seem like an odd choice on a day like today, when we are asked to be mindful of all the lives not fully realized yet fully loved.  But today I had the chance to sit down and begin a new friendship, with a doula named Crystal.  She is collaborating with me on the rebirth of Pure Greenius, which I’m taking from a quarterly publication to a combination of quarterly and weekly schedules.  It was a much needed step away from my every day, and always a treat to get to know someone who turns out to be very much like yourself (heck, we’re almost the same height even – and at my stature, that doesn’t happen very often).

For all of you with little ones to cherish, hold them tight tonight.  We are the blessed.  My own family has been touched by pregnancy loss on many occasions and through multiple generations.  So I know, very truly, how much of a blessing I’ve been given with my own strong, smart, healthy, vital, amazing little girl.

Please take a moment before going to bed, to light a candle and remember the lives not realized, the promises broken before being fulfilled.  Then plant a kiss on the forehead of someone you love.

Night all.  Take care of each other.

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