Ya know? Earlier today I had a few things on my mind, all of which would have made good blog posts. But right now? I’m beat. It was a long and busy second half of the day. And I’m now laying in bed next to the girlie… typing on my netbook while I listen to her breathing in the quiet dark. All I can think of is her. She may be absolutely exhausting, but she’s amazing, she’s wonderful, and she’s mine. 🙂
Happy St. Pats everyone. The girlie wore a pretty green shirt with button flowers on it, and her green tutu. We sang Pangur Ban, and danced around while watching The Secret of Kells. Haven’t seen it yet? I’d say it’s about time you did. We are repeat borrowers (have reserved it from the library a couple times now).
I had actually planned on blogging about some pretty big things that are going on right now politically. There’s some big stuff happening that both lactavists and internet users should both be aware of… but you know what? I need tonight to just recharge. So I do hope you’ll forgive me.
Instead of taking the time to blog, I chose to sit and look at my beautiful, amazing, incredible, creative, loving, rambunctious, stick-to-it kid. I know I’ve said it before… but as a co-sleeping momma I think about it often. I am so grateful for these night time moments. When I can just lay beside my awesome daughter, taking everything in. She recharges me. She sometimes drains me too. LOL But she always gives me so much more than she ever takes away. I’m a lucky mommy. And she is my joy.
So… it’s a short blog post. But I’ve got more important things to do. Like snuggling with my sleeping girlie.
When I watch my wee girl sleeping, laying in bed next to me, joy is simple. Nothing could fill my heart more than watching her here, quietly breathing. Each rise and fall of her tiny chest elevates my happiness a little further. This type of joy is easy. This love comes easily. Some joy, some love, you really have to work at… but for now, I’m blissfully happy just laying here in the dark with my wee one beside me.
Families who don’t co-sleep may find certain things easier (like couple time for mom and dad). LOL But I wouldn’t trade this closeness with my daughter for any of it. She sleeps soundly knowing I’m right here, and I sleep better knowing she is safe and sleeping deeply. This, for me, is a natural.
The wee girlie has her own bed. It’s a loft we built in Autumn. It’s right above our bed (I even posted a couple times about it here). And she slept in it for quite a while… and I missed her while she was up there. LOL But as she grows and changes, sometimes she needs us closer than at others. And right now, she needs these night times. It won’t be long until she rolls her eyes when I ask for a hug and kiss, so as long as she wants me close, I’m happy to remain so.
Co-sleeping is worth any tiny sacrifices we may have to make… but honestly? Those sacrifices are nothing compared to the rewards it brings. In a world full of people with sleeping disorders, I know my daughter sleeps soundly. She is safe, secure, and attached. Just as she should be.
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Finished building the wee girlie’s “up high” bed today. She has wanted a loft bed for a few months now, and even though I’m not really ready for her to be this grown up, she is. So, I did my research, found plans, and created a safe kid zone just for her… right above our bed (which, I’m sure, will still be very much a “family bed”).
Here’s the wee girlie, fast asleep.
Lily-Ann is loving the new toddler bed. It’s still pushed up against ours, side-car. But not having the crib rails makes her feel really good, which makes me feel really good too.
Treated the photo with an antique filter in iPhoto.
Okay… so I actually took this photo last night. BUT, I took it AFTER midnight – which means it counts as today. Right? LOL