Posted by Tobi-Dawne
Losing Natalia today was harder on me than I’d expected. The last few days she balanced that tightrope between life and death so closely, we knew there was a good chance she’d pass… but with her finally starting to gain weight, I had hoped that perhaps we were turning a corner.
Damon and I came home for a feeding at about 2:00, by 2:30 we made the choice not to tube her. She was almost gone, and we didn’t want to put her through it. We took turns holding her against our chests – keeping her warm and close. At 3:21, right before we had to leave to pick up kid kid from school, she passed. Damon passed her to me, and I held her until he had gone to the school and brought Lily-Ann home so we could all say goodbye.
We honestly thought that perhaps we’d turned that all important corner with her… that the tube feedings every two hours, the warm water enemas, the warm baths, vitamin drops, colic cures, all the intensive care and extra attention had given her what she needed… but it clear she was ready to go. She fought long and hard, but was just too tired to keep on trying. I keep reminding myself that 30% of all puppies don’t make it – but it’s little comfort. I am grateful we have four healthy strong boys to love and care for. But it doesn’t temper the sting of losing Natalia.