Some days I have to actually stop and remind myself that this year is about personal joy. With some of what is going on politically, some of my choices, while ethical, aren’t exactly joyful. I am exhausted. I’m being pulled in too many directions. I really do wish I could just “poof” disappear with my daughter and husband for about a week. Then come back refreshed and get back on the fast track again. Anyone have a magic wand? Anyone got a genie?
My mantra right now is “October is almost here”. How the heck I’m going to get everything done that needs to be done BEFORE the end of September, I’m not sure… but come October, my life should go back to being at least partially mine. “October is almost here.” Say it with me: October is almost here. 😉
Today I really just wanted to take a moment to share a link with you. After waking at 5:30 this morning to prepare for the last day of the Hub City dog show, followed quickly by dinner, and cake, and my sister Marie’s 26th birthday celebration, I’m too tired to do much else. So, take a jaunt over to http://releasingthedragonfly.blogspot.com/2011/05/finding-joy.html and find a little joy and inspiration with Mary – who took a little inspiration from me. 🙂
I’m laying in bed next to my daughter, listening to the quiet of the house. Besides the breathing (the girlie and the dogs), and the muffled click of my fingers on the keys, the house is silent. That simply doesn’t happen very often.
The animals are all still. My husband is out (fetching a movie and slurpees). And I get the simple joy of solitude – without actually being alone.
Moments like these were once taken for granted. Back in my twenties, when it was just DH, the dogs (and other sundry animals) and I. These days though… when the full of energy, high need, super creative, way too smart for her own good, kid is tearing around? Yep. These silent, calm, relaxed, pensive moments are few and far between.
In a house this small, with this many lives within it’s walls, you truly hear someone at almost every hour of every day. Whether it’s the cat padding around the stairwell, or Thora (the Lurcher) running in her sleep, Zenora (our congo african grey) telling tales, or the turtle splashing into her pond… even when the house is mostly still, there is still life to be heard.
And just like that my moment of calm surrender is broken. Liz (the Miniature American Eskimo) started yipping. I’m wondering if she may be coming into heat… she’s being extra annoying. 😉
Happy Easter everyone! Hope you too are able to find a quiet calm moment to just be present, somewhere, today.
Today I have so many feelings coursing through… Life for me has rarely been easy. Seriously. But today, it kind of feels like perhaps karma may not be the bitch some folks make her out to be.
I am the new Camp Coordinator for the 2011 Camp fYrefly in Saskatchewan. For some, that probably doesn’t mean a darn thing. For others, I’m sure you’re jumping up and down with joy for me.
Camp fYrefly is an amazing thing. It’s a leadership retreat for LGBTTQ youth. Through the course of the “camp”, kids learn how to become agents for change, how to change attitudes, how to inspire others and themselves. At risk youth, go from the threat of becoming a statistic to becoming our future. A future of strong, healthy, empathetic, and driven people… the kinds of people who can change our world for the better.
So… am I excited? You bet your ass!
I never would have dreamed that I’d have the chance to become involved, especially in such an instrumental way, with something so incredible. Yet here I am. Maybe, sometimes, good things DO happen to good people. Sometimes years of struggle are rewarded.
This is going to be an amazing Summer.
Am I going to be busy? TOTALLY.
With my photography, dog show weekends, and Camp fYrefly… all in addition to being a mom and my commitments with the Green Party? I’ll probably be run off my feet. But it’s going to be amazing. Life changing. Sometimes finding joy is easy, and sometimes you have to shake things up a bit… sometimes you have go out and grab it. So I did. And I’m so excited to get started. Today, everything seems within the realm of possibilities.
I am good enough, and now I know others see that too.
For more information on Camp fYrefly visit: http://www.usask.ca/education/fyrefly/
My joy today came in movie form.
Ask anyone who knows me. I LOVE movies. Indy, mainstream, flicks, films, blockbusters… I love movies.
And every so often a movie comes along that makes me want to sing. A goosebump worthy, joyfest.
If you haven’t seen The Trotsky yet, get thyself to yon library. 🙂 It’s one you need to borrow. Or rent it. Or stream it. Just make yourself available to it in some way. It’s a gooder. Well acted, well written, well directed, well produced, well lit, well designed. It’s just one of those happy-making flicks. It made me grin, lots.
yep. too tired.
Life can just be exhausting at times.
But, I’m still determined to find joy in every day… and despite being worn out, there were plenty of little moments that made me smile, and reminded me that it’s all sooo worth it.
It’s easy to find the joy.
Holding onto it is another matter.
…but I’m sure I’ll learn that too. Just give me a little time. 😉
Hit the fabric store today. I LOVE the fabric store. I’m pretty sure I’ve mentioned this before. LOL It just speaks to me of possibilities. All the gorgeous fabrics just waiting for someone (and their inspiration) to turn them into something new and amazing. Joy is easy for me to find in a fabric store. LOL And yes, I realize this likely makes me a huge nerd. 😉
Here’s what I’m making for the wee girlie:
You can download the pattern for free at this super awesome sewing blog called Made By Rae. The pattern is at http://www.made-by-rae.com/2009/02/free-buttercup-bag-sewing-pattern.html
Lily-Ann’s bag will be purple with silver. Super cute. 🙂 I’ll share it with you all when I’m finished. She’s already super excited about it.
Today, the wee girlie, Damon, and I packed away our holiday staples. We put the ornaments and garlands into Nana’s old tins. Lily-Ann put on the lids, as her Daddy packed away the Yule tree. All tucked away, safe and sound, for next year.
Often this is a process I find mundane and completely unenjoyable. But I made the choice to find joy in it this year. Instead of focusing on the fact that the holidays, which I so love, are done with for another year, I thought about all the fun we had. Remembered all the people, the laughter, the food, the gifts, the special times we shared and the new memories we made. And you know what? It was actually a really nice time.
So far so good on this journey to joy. 🙂
In the coming days I will be adding a new page to the blog. One inviting you to take your own “joy journey”. I hope you’ll add your name and commit to the challenge. Let’s make life more joyful.