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What happened to the “Joy Journey”?

Some days I have to actually stop and remind myself that this year is about personal joy.  With some of what is going on politically, some of my choices, while ethical, aren’t exactly joyful.  I am exhausted.  I’m being pulled in too many directions.  I really do wish I could just “poof” disappear with my daughter and husband for about a week.  Then come back refreshed and get back on the fast track again.  Anyone have a magic wand?  Anyone got a genie?

My mantra right now is “October is almost here”.  How the heck I’m going to get everything done that needs to be done BEFORE the end of September, I’m not sure…  but come October, my life should go back to being at least partially mine.  “October is almost here.”  Say it with me: October is almost here.  😉

Finding Joy and Offering Inspiration

Today I really just wanted to take a moment to share a link with you.  After waking at 5:30 this morning to prepare for the last day of the Hub City dog show, followed quickly by dinner, and cake, and my sister Marie’s 26th birthday celebration, I’m too tired to do much else.  So, take a jaunt over to http://releasingthedragonfly.blogspot.com/2011/05/finding-joy.html and find a little joy and inspiration with Mary – who took a little inspiration from me.  🙂

Feeling Peaceful

I’m laying in bed next to my daughter, listening to the quiet of the house.  Besides the breathing (the girlie and the dogs), and the muffled click of my fingers on the keys, the house is silent.  That simply doesn’t happen very often.

The animals are all still.  My husband is out (fetching a movie and slurpees).  And I get the simple joy of solitude – without actually being alone.

Moments like these were once taken for granted.  Back in my twenties, when it was just DH, the dogs (and other sundry animals) and I.  These days though…  when the full of energy, high need, super creative, way too smart for her own good, kid is tearing around?  Yep.  These silent, calm, relaxed, pensive moments are few and far between.

In a house this small, with this many lives within it’s walls, you truly hear someone at almost every hour of every day.  Whether it’s the cat padding around the stairwell, or Thora (the Lurcher) running in her sleep, Zenora (our congo african grey) telling tales, or the turtle splashing into her pond…  even when the house is mostly still, there is still life to be heard.

And just like that my moment of calm surrender is broken.  Liz (the Miniature American Eskimo) started yipping.  I’m wondering if she may be coming into heat…  she’s being extra annoying.  😉

Happy Easter everyone!  Hope you too are able to find a quiet calm moment to just be present, somewhere, today.

Meet the Coordinator for Camp fYrefly 2011!

Today I have so many feelings coursing through…  Life for me has rarely been easy.  Seriously.  But today, it kind of  feels like perhaps karma may not be the bitch some folks make her out to be.

I am the new Camp Coordinator for the 2011 Camp fYrefly in Saskatchewan.  For some, that probably doesn’t mean a darn thing.  For others, I’m sure you’re jumping up and down with joy for me.

Camp fYrefly is an amazing thing.  It’s a leadership retreat for LGBTTQ youth.  Through the course of the “camp”, kids learn how to become agents for change, how to change attitudes, how to inspire others and themselves.  At risk youth, go from the threat of becoming a statistic to becoming our future.  A future of strong, healthy, empathetic, and driven people…  the kinds of people who can change our world for the better.

So…  am I excited?  You bet your ass!

I never would have dreamed that I’d have the chance to become involved, especially in such an instrumental way, with something so incredible.  Yet here I am.  Maybe, sometimes, good things DO happen to good people.  Sometimes years of struggle are rewarded.

This is going to be an amazing Summer.

Am I going to be busy?  TOTALLY.

With my photography, dog show weekends, and Camp fYrefly…  all in addition to being a mom and my commitments with the Green Party?  I’ll probably be run off my feet.  But it’s going to be amazing.  Life changing.  Sometimes finding joy is easy, and sometimes you have to shake things up a bit…  sometimes you have go out and grab it.  So I did.  And I’m so excited to get started.  Today, everything seems within the realm of possibilities.

I am good enough, and now I know others see that too.

 

For more information on Camp fYrefly visit:  http://www.usask.ca/education/fyrefly/

Absolutely Enchanting!

I had actually planned on blogging about some pretty big things that are going on right now politically.  There’s some big stuff happening that both lactavists and internet users should both be aware of…  but you know what?  I need tonight to just recharge.  So I do hope you’ll forgive me.

Instead of taking the time to blog, I chose to sit and look at my beautiful, amazing, incredible, creative, loving, rambunctious, stick-to-it kid.  I know I’ve said it before…  but as a co-sleeping momma I think about it often.  I am so grateful for these night time moments.  When I can just lay beside my awesome daughter, taking everything in.  She recharges me.  She sometimes drains me too.  LOL  But she always gives me so much more than she ever takes away.  I’m a lucky mommy.  And she is my joy.

Sleeping Beauty

 

So… it’s a short blog post.  But I’ve got more important things to do.  Like snuggling with my sleeping girlie.

Sometimes joy is simple…

When I watch my wee girl sleeping, laying in bed next to me, joy is simple.  Nothing could fill my heart more than watching her here, quietly breathing.  Each rise and fall of her tiny chest elevates my happiness a little further.  This type of joy is easy.  This love comes easily.  Some joy, some love, you really have to work at…  but for now, I’m blissfully happy just laying here in the dark with my wee one beside me.

Families who don’t co-sleep may find certain things easier (like couple time for mom and dad).  LOL  But I wouldn’t trade this closeness with my daughter for any of it.  She sleeps soundly knowing I’m right here, and I sleep better knowing she is safe and sleeping deeply.  This, for me, is a natural.

The wee girlie has her own bed.  It’s a loft we built in Autumn.  It’s right above our bed (I even posted a couple times about it here).  And she slept in it for quite a while…  and I missed her while she was up there.  LOL  But as she grows and changes, sometimes  she needs us closer than at others.  And right now, she needs these night times.  It won’t be long until she rolls her eyes when I ask for a hug and kiss, so as long as she wants me close, I’m happy to remain so.

Co-sleeping is worth any tiny sacrifices we may have to make…  but honestly?  Those sacrifices are nothing compared to the rewards it brings.  In a world full of people with sleeping disorders, I know my daughter sleeps soundly.  She  is safe, secure, and attached.  Just as she should be.

Soundly Sleeping Sweetie

The Trotsky

My joy today came in movie form.

Ask anyone who knows me.  I LOVE movies.  Indy, mainstream, flicks, films, blockbusters…  I love movies.

And every so often a movie  comes along that makes me want to sing.  A goosebump worthy, joyfest.

If you haven’t seen The Trotsky yet, get thyself to yon library.  🙂  It’s one you need to borrow.  Or rent it.  Or stream it.  Just make yourself available to it in some way.  It’s a gooder.  Well acted, well written, well directed, well produced, well lit, well designed.  It’s just one of those happy-making flicks.  It made me grin, lots.

Clickthe image for the film's website.

I’m too tired…

yep.  too tired.

LOL

Life can just be exhausting at times.

Draining.

But, I’m still determined to find joy in every day…  and despite being worn out, there were plenty of little moments that made me smile, and reminded me that it’s all sooo worth it.

It’s easy to find the joy.

Holding onto it is another matter.

…but I’m sure I’ll learn that too.  Just give me a little  time.  😉

My new project, the buttercup bag.

Hit the fabric store today.  I LOVE the fabric store.  I’m pretty sure I’ve mentioned this before.  LOL  It just speaks to me of possibilities.  All the gorgeous fabrics just waiting for someone (and their inspiration) to turn them into something new and amazing.  Joy is easy for me to find in a fabric store.  LOL  And yes, I realize this likely makes me a huge nerd.  😉

Here’s what I’m making for the wee girlie:

The Buttercup Bag

You can download the pattern for free at this super awesome sewing blog called Made By Rae.  The pattern is at http://www.made-by-rae.com/2009/02/free-buttercup-bag-sewing-pattern.html

Lily-Ann’s bag will be purple with silver.  Super cute.  🙂  I’ll share it with you all when I’m finished.  She’s already super excited about it.

Packing away the holidays…

Today, the wee girlie, Damon, and I packed away our holiday staples.  We put the ornaments and garlands  into Nana’s old tins.  Lily-Ann put on the lids, as her Daddy packed away the Yule tree.  All tucked away, safe and sound, for next year.

Often this is a process I find mundane and completely unenjoyable.  But I made the choice to find joy in it this year.  Instead of focusing on the fact that the holidays, which I so love, are done with for another year, I thought about all the fun we had.  Remembered all the people, the laughter, the food, the gifts, the special times we shared and the new memories we made.  And you know what?  It was actually a really nice time.

So far so good on this journey to joy.  🙂

tins full of holiday cheer

Nana's Tins

In the coming days I will be adding a new page to the blog.  One inviting you to take your own “joy journey”.  I hope you’ll add your name and commit to the challenge.  Let’s make life more joyful.

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