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Seek no more

On Thursday, February 28th I felt a sudden need to light a candle and to send love out into the universe.  I didn’t know why I needed to, I just knew that I had to.  So at 4:30 I let my daughter choose a candle and we lit it together.  Shortly after that things became all to clear.

Bran Everseeking, who was known to some as Thomas Dunbar, was a treasured friend.  At 4:15 his wife, Naomi, had posted to FB that he was having a heart attack.  It wasn’t until later that evening I would learn of it…  after seeing another post she made at 6:04.  Bran had left this world for the next.  Gratefully I didn’t learn the news until after Lily-Ann had gone to sleep as with it came a slurry of tears.  It honestly felt like some cruel joke.

The last couple of days have been absolutely draining, and I really have no words – which is why this post is more dry facts than anything else.  I’m simply trying to relay information without breaking down again.  For now all I can share are images, something I believe Bran (as a fellow photographer) would appreciate.

The candle I lit at about 4:30 on Thursday, burned until 4:54 Saturday morning.  I know this, because the change in light woke me from a troubled sleep and I saw the last ember go out.

Goodnight my dear, dear friend.  Know that love follows you from this life into the next.  Seek no more.

The Legacy of 9/11 is Love.

Today is a day for contemplation, and for many it is filled with a deep sense of loss.  Rightly so.  And not just for the losses that occurred 11 years ago in the U.S. but for the losses 39 years ago in Chile.

Today I chose to focus on all the blessings we have.  The love of family.  The gift that is Lily-Ann.  Our wonderful animal family members.  The home we have had for nine years now.  My husband, and all that he does for us.  The fact that I am able to make my way through life as a photographer and advocate.  That we live somewhere that anyone I love is free to love whom they love without persecution.  The many friends, though some are far away, who care so deeply for us.  Our many communities that we are a part of, both irl and online.  And these are just the tip of the iceberg.

Things may not be perfect but we are so very, very blessed.  No… we must not forget the travesties this world has faced, and not just on 9/11, as they have shaped our lives in so many ways.  However, to dwell on all the horrible things man has done does nothing to honor all the good that has also been done.  And I will always choose to focus on the love, the honor, the heroism, the bravery, and the many incredible things our species has done.  I do so with hope, because I refuse to despair for our future while lamenting the past.  I believe in our children, and I believe they will lead us to a life filled with love and promise.

Today is a day for contemplation.  So I have, and will continue to think on our world and the world our children will find themselves in.  But I will do so with hope.  If nothing else, days like today, have taught us love.

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