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I am not ready to give her up!

It may be ridiculous, but all I can be right now is sad.

Summer hasn’t even started yet, and already it’s too short.  Two months?  That’s barely enough time to picnic, forget finishing our unpacking, fixing up the house, gardening, heading to the lake, and all the other things we want to do.  We’re going to blink and it will be time for school again.

Autumn used to be my favourite time of year.  I loved the weather, the leaves, the fact that most folk stopped coming to the lake – leaving it just for us…  I loved everything about it.  Now I’m dreading it.

Autumn this year means my baby is leaving me.  And the kicker?  I’m the one who convinced her to give grade one a try, she wanted to stay home and have me teach her.  But Ms. Jackson, the grade one teacher at Mayfair?  She’s fabulous.  Is so obviously passionate about her kids, and I just know Lily-Ann could learn so much from having her be a daily part of her life.  I’m just so not ready to give her up.  Not even close to ready.

Moving from Pre-k to Kindergarten was hard enough.  I still miss our Friday afternoons.  But the idea that come Fall I will only have my girl for a few hours every day???  It’s just too much.  I honestly cried myself to sleep last night.  It’s ridiculous, I know.  I can’t help it though.  I am not ready to give her up.

We haven’t even started Summer holidays and already I’m depressed and upset over Summer coming to an end.  How the heck am I going to make it through?  There isn’t enough time in the world to prepare me for giving up my daughter full time to the school system.  Can’t she go part time?  Honestly?  Truly?  Is that an option?  Because THAT would make it all better.

Through my daughters eyes…

This afternoon, the wee girlie picked up a pamphlet I had sitting on a side table, and rolled it up like an old fashioned pirate’s scope.  She then proceeded to peer through it, and began listing off things she could see.  It wasn’t long into this little adventure that she asked (while staring straight at me through her paper spyglass) “Know what I’m looking at Mom?”

I grinned widely at her, and gave her a goofy look.

She continued, “I see blonde hair and blue eyes.”

“Are you looking at me?” I ask, feigning surprise.

“Nope.  I’m looking at Daddy.”

“What?!?!” I exclaim.  “That sounds like the Mommy to me.  Does your Daddy have blonde hair and blue eyes?”

The girlie giggles, knowing full well that her Daddy has dark hair and is the only one of us without blue eyes.  “Yes, he does.”  She continues, “I see blonde hair and blue eyes.”  Still giggling.

“That sounds like Mommy.”  I scrinch up my nose, wrinkle my brow, and give her a goofy sideways look.

“Nope.  It’s Daddy.  He has beautiful lips and pretty skin.”

“What?!?!?  Are you SURE that’s your Daddy.”

“Yep.  It’s Daddy.”

By now she’s absolutely busting a gut, and I have to admit, despite the fact that we are being completely silly?  I’m feeling awfully lucky having a daughter that sees me the way she does.  🙂  Yep.  I’m a pretty Mommy…  pretty freakin’ lucky to have her as a daughter.

Absolutely Enchanting!

I had actually planned on blogging about some pretty big things that are going on right now politically.  There’s some big stuff happening that both lactavists and internet users should both be aware of…  but you know what?  I need tonight to just recharge.  So I do hope you’ll forgive me.

Instead of taking the time to blog, I chose to sit and look at my beautiful, amazing, incredible, creative, loving, rambunctious, stick-to-it kid.  I know I’ve said it before…  but as a co-sleeping momma I think about it often.  I am so grateful for these night time moments.  When I can just lay beside my awesome daughter, taking everything in.  She recharges me.  She sometimes drains me too.  LOL  But she always gives me so much more than she ever takes away.  I’m a lucky mommy.  And she is my joy.

Sleeping Beauty

 

So… it’s a short blog post.  But I’ve got more important things to do.  Like snuggling with my sleeping girlie.

Merry Christmas!

Just a quick upload…  I’m sure I’ll have lots of photos to share in the coming days, but whether I’ll get online to upload one a day or not is a big question.  So here’s one from tonight.  At the annual family and friends Christmas Eve party.  Thank you Jamie for snapping this one for me.  It means a lot.

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas from the Wee Girlie and I.

 

Hope you all have a safe and happy weekend surrounded by your loved ones.  Make merry and a happy ho ho ho to each and every one of you.

Happy New Year!

For those of you who celebrate based on the Celtic calendar, have a wonderful new year!  Together we enter the dark, but within it is the promise of light and new life.  Share your table, your harvest, and your cheer with those around you, and may you be blessed throughout this new year.

The wee girlie and I, being silly.

Me and My Girl

Lily-Ann fell asleep in my arms today…  and you’d be hard pressed to find a moment I find more lovely than a moment when I can hold her close and know that she is safe.  My love for her is honestly overwhelming at times.  And I’ve made sure she knows just how deeply she is treasured, loved, and appreciated.  I tell her every day, and more than that, I show her every day.  I tell her stories about when I was pregnant, and the things I felt then.  I tell her stories about how she came to be, and how much even the nurses loved her…  that they all thought she was so special that they had to tell the other nurses, and soon enough ALL the nurses had been by the room to see this perfect special little person that I was lucky enough to have and love.  I really am blessed.  She’s amazing.  So now I’m just rambling.  LOL  That’s what happens when I get sentimental about my girl.  😉  So….  before I bore you to tears, here’s the photo for today.  Just me and my girl.

Mommy and Baby...

Me and my girl

So, this picture won’t win any awards…  in ANY categories.  LOL  But it makes me happy.  Just snapped it with my blackberry held out in my right hand as far away from us as I could reach.  Then worked with it afterwards in iPhoto.

What a lucky, lucky mommy  am I.  🙂

Amber & Ainsley

The wee girlie and I headed out just after an early lunch to meet our dear friends Amber and Ainsley at the park today.  Amber is my most trusted friend, and Ainsley is one of Lily-Ann’s favorite buddies.  It just kinda worked out that Amber and I met, and met again (a couple of times) before becoming friends.  By chance we are on the exact same page as one another on pretty much everything, from politics to parenting.  LOL  And we both had baby girls three months apart…  (just before becoming good friends).  Fate kept throwing us together until we took the hint.  😉  So it’s super awesome that, through our friendship, Ainsley and Lily-Ann have a built in buddy.  😀

Anyway….  I took my camera along with us to the park.  Only snapped about ten pictures, and two of my favorites happen to be of Amber and Ainsley.  Look at Amber’s face.  Nothing more wonderful in the world than the way she is looking at her baby girl.  You know that wee girlie is treasured and loved beyond measure.  🙂  Lovely!

Amber Jones and her daughter Ainsley playing at the park

Amber & Ainsley

Playing Around

Lily-Ann and I were playing around in photobooth today.  There’s a setting that takes four photos in quick succession.  We did it…  three times.  I pasted all three together in photoshop to create one long strip of photos.  So it’s not REALLY one photo, but it’s one file.  🙂

playing around in photobooth on our iMac

Playing Around

To see the image in more detail, just click on it.  It will open to it’s full size so you can see each frame more clearly, if you’re interested.

Pretty Piggies

First a bit of background.

When the wee girlie was a week and a day shy of her first birthday I gave her a pedicure – her first pedicure.  Her perfect little pink toes with the prettiest metallic pink polish (my favorite polish).  I then did mine to match.  Our matching “piggies” just begged to be captured, so I happily obliged.  What resulted is one of my favorite photographs of my daughter and I…  and all that’s in it is our toes.

Today, Lily-Ann asked to do her own toenails – for the first time.  She picked the polish, and covered her freshly bathed piggies in cotton candy pink.  She then proceeded to marinate my toes in a metallic blue.  Again…  our piggies begged to be captured.  THAT is today’s photograph.

The original "piggie" photograph from July 12th 2008.

The Original, July 12/08 - Nikon D70

Piggies in a row, today.

Pretty Piggies in a Row, Jan 6/10 - Nikon D70

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