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I am not ready to give her up!

It may be ridiculous, but all I can be right now is sad.

Summer hasn’t even started yet, and already it’s too short.  Two months?  That’s barely enough time to picnic, forget finishing our unpacking, fixing up the house, gardening, heading to the lake, and all the other things we want to do.  We’re going to blink and it will be time for school again.

Autumn used to be my favourite time of year.  I loved the weather, the leaves, the fact that most folk stopped coming to the lake – leaving it just for us…  I loved everything about it.  Now I’m dreading it.

Autumn this year means my baby is leaving me.  And the kicker?  I’m the one who convinced her to give grade one a try, she wanted to stay home and have me teach her.  But Ms. Jackson, the grade one teacher at Mayfair?  She’s fabulous.  Is so obviously passionate about her kids, and I just know Lily-Ann could learn so much from having her be a daily part of her life.  I’m just so not ready to give her up.  Not even close to ready.

Moving from Pre-k to Kindergarten was hard enough.  I still miss our Friday afternoons.  But the idea that come Fall I will only have my girl for a few hours every day???  It’s just too much.  I honestly cried myself to sleep last night.  It’s ridiculous, I know.  I can’t help it though.  I am not ready to give her up.

We haven’t even started Summer holidays and already I’m depressed and upset over Summer coming to an end.  How the heck am I going to make it through?  There isn’t enough time in the world to prepare me for giving up my daughter full time to the school system.  Can’t she go part time?  Honestly?  Truly?  Is that an option?  Because THAT would make it all better.

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Woe be unto the mother after moving.

I’m beginning to think I may need to start blogging in the afternoons.  Lately I’m so beat by the time the girl is in bed that it’s hard to string two sentences together – forget being witty and interesting while doing so.  Settling in and nesting is an exhausting undertaking, and this is our first time doing so with a five year old under foot…  which only multiplies the exhaustion and the amount of time it takes to get anything done.  I am hopeful though, slowly we will put together a room.  And yes, I said A room, as in ONE room…  eventually ONE room will be finished, and then we’ll move onto another.  For now though, we live surrounded by boxes and piles of partially organized items.  And I’m just too darn exhausted to do anything about it.  😛

titles are hard when you are tired

Another night, another positively exhausting day.  At least the basement didn’t flood again (of course, I didn’t do any laundry today either).

Damon and I spent the evening putting together the girl’s new loft bed, while she played at my parents place.  Her Tio and Auntie Tabs bought her a new (much smaller) loft which meant we could leave the extra large one we’d built at the old place.  It would have been a major headache to get the old one out – especially considering we had to build most of it in the room as it was too big to do any other way.  The new one is much smaller and cuter too.  And, for now, the loft is full of her boxes that still need unpacking… but it will eventually become Ponyville, home to all the ponies of Equestria.

Now I’m going to bed.  LOL

Night all!

The ballet recital

It’s amazing how quickly life intervenes and prevents you from getting anywhere.  During the two weeks Damon was home from work, we got an incredible amount done…  The house boxed up and moved, beginning to set up the new place…  but now that he’s back at work, we’re lucky to get a box unpacked every day.  With work, school, birthday parties, and ballet recitals?  It’s tough to find time for anything else.

It’s a little frustrating.  I’d really like to have the house free of boxes rather shortly.  I don’t want to go into the holiday season amidst piles of stuff.

So here’s something cute.  🙂  The girl had her very first ballet recital today.  Granted, it was an early introduction class for 3, 4, and 5 year olds – so there wasn’t much to it.  But it was cute just the same.  Here’s the video her Daddy took:

Leaving Home

The big move is only four sleeps away.  The girl says she’s excited about it, and I believe her…  but I know she’s feeling some anxiety too – even if it’s below the surface.  The way she’s cuddling in extra tight at night, and has been keeping me awake (even though she’s fast asleep herself) the last few nights tells a very clear story.

We are all excited…  but it’s tough to leave your home behind.  For the girl, this is the only home she’s ever known.  For us “grown ups”, it’s the longest either one of us has ever lived in one place.  Nine and a half years isn’t so easy a thing to shrug off.

All the anxiety and stress though?  I have a feeling it will melt away once we walk in the front door of our new house.  After all, we wouldn’t have chosen it if it hadn’t felt like home the minute we had walked in the first time we viewed it.  And it did.  It really did.  So I know we’re leaving behind a home we love, but we’re gaining a home that I think we’ll come to love even more.  🙂

I hate moving.

I’m stressed out and highly emotional.  Probably not a good night for blogging unless I want salty water and snot in my keyboard.  😛  So I’m going to refrain.  I’ll be fine, nothing to worry about.  Just lots of upheaval right now, which kinda makes me want to crawl into a hole and not come out for a couple of months.  So, after I finish packing a couple more boxes I’m going to watch a little TV and have a relatively early bedtime.
Night all!

New House Nerves and Medusa the Mean

Okay, ya got me.  I’ve been kind of a lazy blogger lately.  My posts aren’t really sounding like me, they are short and not nearly as engaging.  Yeah.  I know.

The fact of the matter is, with everything on my brain lately, I’m just not quite myself.  I’m stressed about the house…  packing up and leaving this place behind is tough.  I’m super excited about the new place and what it will mean for our family, but that doesn’t take away from the fact that this is our home.  We got engaged in the bathroom.  We first talked about having a baby sitting in this bedroom.  We’ve lived lots of places together, Damon and I, but this was the first one that was home.  Nine years here.  It’s a hard thing to walk away from, even if the place no longer meets our needs.

So yeah.  With the house on my brain, it’s hard to think of much else for long enough to blog about it.  …and I’m guessing you don’t want to hear me posting about the house every day.  😉

We take possession one month from today.  We already have so many boxes packed that it’s tough to move around in here.  We haven’t got even a small portion of the packing done yet.  There’s more than one reason we stayed here nine years (even though the intention was about three years when we bought the place).  LOL

It’s a good thing.  This is going to be such an amazing thing for us.  But that doesn’t take away from how difficult it is.

That said, here’s something cute and fun:

We’ve been reading Medusa the Mean (yep, another book in the Goddess Girls series).  Lily-Ann absolutely LOVED chapter 7, Kindergarten Buddies.  Of course, being IN kindergarten herself probably had a lot to do with it…  though it was a super adorable chapter that made her giggle and grin repeatedly (especially when she realized that there was a crush starting between Medusa and Dionysus, and then further imagined her Daddy as being like Dionysus and herself as Andromeda).  So tonight, before bedtime, she decided to draw Medusa and Dionysus – as inspired by the Goddess Girls books and the cover illustration of Medusa the Mean.  And for a five year old?  I was darn impressed.  😉

The cover art for Medusa the Mean, and the girl's interpretation of Medusa and Dionysus.

Medusa and Dionysus

Our Big News!

For the last couple of weeks, I’ve been relatively stressed and eager to share.  This blog is really where I go to hash out things I’m concerned about, to put dreams into reality, to work out problems, to find ideas, and just to get stuff off my chest.  So not sharing THIS?  That’s been really freakin’ tough.

Our New Home

This? Oh, this? Ahhh, it’s nothing. ;P Yeah, just our NEW HOUSE!

 

Yep, what you see above is the MLS listing for our new house.  We signed off on the conditions on Friday.  It was a little stressful there for a bit… see, we’d sold our house in less than a day (with multiple offers) LAST Friday.  So waiting for financing and the home inspection so we could officially call this place ours?  Yeah.  Stressful.

We love our crappy little house.  We really do.  But the girl is ready for her own bedroom, and well, as much as I hated to admit it, we’ve outgrown it.  620 square feet is fine for a couple, or even for a family of three when the third is still tiny.  But Lily-Ann is ready for her own space…  and that’s not going to change.  Thankfully, many of the things we love about our home we’ll still have in the new place.

Our lot will still be a double lot, in fact, we’re adding a couple of feet.  LOL  Our current lot is 50×122, our new lot is 50×124.  😉  And while we’re gaining over 400 square feet of space inside, the house itself is still really cozy, cute, and cottage-like.  We’re also still in the same neighbourhood – which I love so very much.  And get this!  We’re going from having a seven block walk to school to a two block walk.  How fabulous is that???

We’ve got a ton of work ahead of us.  We’ve lived here nine years, so that’s a whole lot of life that needs to be boxed up.  And right during my busiest crafting season (which I’m not thrilled about).  So this year we may end up having to purchase a lot of our Halloween costumes and accessories instead of having home sewn/made ones.  But that’s a relatively little sacrifice.

Our possession date is November 10th, and we hand over the keys for this place on the 15th.  That gives us four days to move house and clean up before we have to be out of here for good.  I’m going to miss this place.  Yeah, I know.  It’s falling down around us.  Heck, the recommendation was to tear it down and build a new place when we bought it – even back then we purchased it for the land value.  LOL  But it’s seen us through a lot.  It’ll be weird seeing it torn down.  I’ll have to take a bunch of pictures after we’re all boxed up…  to remember all those little details I put into it.  I’ll have a new canvas now, a new place for my murals and inspirations.  The girl is already cooking up all sorts of projects for her room, and I’ll only be too happy to oblige.  And…  I have to admit, my wheels are turning already too.  🙂

This house is going to be amazing.  It really is.  I’m so looking forward to spending the next phase of our lives there.  It’s going to be great!

Big thanks to Chris Craik (http://hallmarkrealty.ca/agentdir=3831/index.html) for all his help in finding the perfect place for us, and selling ours so darn quickly.  As well as to Sandra Scheiss (www.leadingedgebrokers.com) and associates for landing us our new mortgage, even when we weren’t sure it would be possible.  Only one step left, and that’s to send everything to the lawyers – which, after everything else, is definitely the easy part.

 

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