Come Saturday afternoon, I’ll no longer be the president of the Green Party of Saskatchewan. I’ve occupied the role for the last four years, since I was placed into the position by the board as the interim president in the Autumn of 2008, and was then elected and reelected by the party membership. It may not sound like a long time, but it feels like it. And come Saturday I’ll be stepping down not just from that particular role, but from the board in general.
I do have to admit, the decision has come with some mixed emotions… and it really wasn’t much of a decision really. The party has a requirement that members not serve on the board any longer than three years. I stayed on longer as there was no-one to fill the role except for myself. This year though, I’ve had the wonderful opportunity to serve with Vicki Strelioff who was elected as my VP. And after working with her all this past year, and seeing how wonderfully she has handled herself through what proved to be a rather difficult year for the board, I have EVERY confidence in her ability to serve the membership as party chair.
I now have to decide if I do my one last duty, or if I step aside and allow Vicki to chair our AGM. It would seem an obvious decision. I attend the AGM, and chair one final meeting. The only reason it is a choice at all, and not just a given, is I know how difficult I will find it.
There is no glory in being the president of a political party. You hold all the responsibility, for everything that happens within the party, yet hardly anyone even knows your name. The leader – the figurehead – gets the all the prestige (and in some instances, without nearly the work). But if something ever goes wrong, that shifts very quickly. The president is the scapegoat, the one who’s head hits the chopping block in any scandal. However, if you’ve done your job well? Life continues on normally, no-one even realizing you are there – navigating the rough water, keeping an even keel. Ensuring your ship and her crew are safe and at ease. …it’s not a perfect metaphor, but it works. 😉
The GPS has been such a huge part of my daily life for the last half decade… There is some relief at no longer having to shoulder the burden, but there is also a very large sense of loss. I know myself, and know how prone to tears I can be. I’m not sure I’d make it through that final meeting without coming apart – and that’s hardly befitting the chair of the board. I don’t know. I very honestly am not sure what I want to do.
At first it didn’t even enter into my mind that attending was a choice. It’s part of the job description. I call and chair all the meetings… but the closer this meeting gets, the more I’m finding I’m dreading it. I feel kind of silly over the whole thing, but part of me knows I’ll have to say good bye, and if I avoid the meeting, I can avoid doing so.
I guess we’ll see. I don’t have long now, and one way or another I need to make the choice. It really is the end of an era for me, and to be honest I’m torn over how I feel. Relief and sadness… they make for odd bedfellows.
Today I’d intended to write about the girlie heading back to school… and nothing else. I mean, honestly. That’s big enough a topic, isn’t it? But then, like everything in my life the last few weeks, it just seemed to be one thing after another today.
Ever since Camp fYrefly wrapped up, it really has been one thing after another keeping me from finishing up camp associated work. It’s a little frustrating. And today was no different. Just one more thing added to the heap. Today I got the news that Larissa is stepping down from the provincial Greens.
I don’t know all the details, but I imagine it is health related. Larissa and I have many of the same diagnosis, and for her age and maturity level, she has handled them better than I did at the same point in my life. Today most of my physical issues don’t weigh very heavily on me – but it’s only because of years full of coping experience. Six or seven years ago, I wasn’t in the same place I am now and I know Larissa must be drained. Being the leader of a provincial party can take a lot out of a healthy individual, and it can have a brutal effect on someone who’s health isn’t tip top.
The Green Party of Saskatchewan is losing a great leader today. Larissa’s passion, vigor, and knowledge served us well for these last years. Her dedication and dreams of a better Saskatchewan inspired many. Thank you Larissa, for everything. You will be missed.
The executive will now have to gear up for a special leadership race and election – in addition to gearing up for the provincial election coming in November. As the President of the party, I can assure you, we will all be working very hard to ensure every member of the party has a chance to voice their concerns, and to have their thoughts heard. If you are interested in possibly running, do let me know. I’ll make sure your name is brought forward to the board.
So… back to school. LOL It would have been plenty to attend with today. But that’s just not how the chips fell. Here’s the girlie on our walk to school today. Sling pack on, and ready to go. And yes! We totally glittered up and embellished the pack – just how she wanted it. 😉