On Thursday, February 28th I felt a sudden need to light a candle and to send love out into the universe. I didn’t know why I needed to, I just knew that I had to. So at 4:30 I let my daughter choose a candle and we lit it together. Shortly after that things became all to clear.
Bran Everseeking, who was known to some as Thomas Dunbar, was a treasured friend. At 4:15 his wife, Naomi, had posted to FB that he was having a heart attack. It wasn’t until later that evening I would learn of it… after seeing another post she made at 6:04. Bran had left this world for the next. Gratefully I didn’t learn the news until after Lily-Ann had gone to sleep as with it came a slurry of tears. It honestly felt like some cruel joke.
The last couple of days have been absolutely draining, and I really have no words – which is why this post is more dry facts than anything else. I’m simply trying to relay information without breaking down again. For now all I can share are images, something I believe Bran (as a fellow photographer) would appreciate.
The candle I lit at about 4:30 on Thursday, burned until 4:54 Saturday morning. I know this, because the change in light woke me from a troubled sleep and I saw the last ember go out.
Goodnight my dear, dear friend. Know that love follows you from this life into the next. Seek no more.
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Tomorrow morning is going to be a tough one. 11 hours from now, we’ll be leaving to take Deedee to the airport where she’ll fly to Kelowna to meet her new family. Placing puppies isn’t easy… but placing one who is a year and a half is even harder.
We’ve known since she was only a few months old that there would come a time when we’d place Deedee. This litter was a co-breeding between myself (Sidhe Dogs) and Em (HiLeigh Chihuahuas)… so with two puppies one was ours and one was hers. We chose to keep Alice as her temperament just fit in better with us. Which meant it was just a matter of finding the perfect placement for our little tri-coloured girl.
Deedee is a lot like her mom: super smart. She’s also super accepting and willing to just sit back and let the girl manhandle her. After all, Lily-Ann has been holding the pups since they were a few days old. At this point it’s just second nature for them to relax in her arms and have her cart them around. She’s gentle with them, but she is a kid, and the pups learn quickly to just relax and go with it. Because while they won’t always be carried around or treated in a dignified manner, it’s always done gently and with love.
Alice ended up being our pick, mainly because her temperament is more like her dad’s, she’s the snuggler. And I need a snuggler. Lily-Ann bogarted Marnie, so our family clearly needed a second. And as much as we love Roo, one Roo is plenty for any household. 😉
Thankfully for her new family, while Deedee is a lot like her mom, she did inherit some of her dad’s easygoing nature. She’s up for just about anything at any time. She’s happiest on the go. She loves hiking, hitting the beach, camping… and as the only dog in her new home, she’ll be toted everywhere and doted on by this active family. It’s also nice to know that all their past fids (furry kids) are all still so treasured (pictures hanging up as reminders of those who are waiting for them at the rainbow bridge).
We really are going to miss our little treasure… but we wouldn’t let her go if we had any doubts about her being treasured there too. It really is going to be a hard morning. Lots of tears ahead (and some right now too). The girl and I have already shared a cry, but I’m sure we’ll have another tomorrow. Our little Deedee is one in a million, and she will always be loved.
Well, today the girlie and I took Neddie to the airport. After a year of being a part of our family, it was time for him to go home. It’s a long time to welcome a dog into your lives only to have to say good bye. We’ll miss him (I already do).
I just took the girlie to school… and coming back downstairs alone, without Ned there to greet me was kinda weird. Usually he’s the first one to start “talking” with me when I come home. Well, after the parrot anyway. This time, the dogs all just stayed laying down. Hardly any of them even looked up to say “hey mom!”.
A couple of days ago we took Lily-Ann and the Nadster out to one of my favourite dogs-allowed parks here in town. The river is really high right now, flooding over many of the banks – including the banks at the park. Walking along the path in one area, the girl was able to stroll right into the river without ever leaving the path. Ned thought she was nuts. He gave the water a sniff, but there was no coaxing on her part that would get him to put even the tiniest tip of his toe in.
On our way back to the car, the girlie sat down with the boy – on a ledge that now overhangs the river (but usually just edges the path). I stayed out of the way, and so did Damon. And the two of them just had a private chat. Their own personal goodbye. I was able to sneak out my camera without interrupting the moment:
I absolutely love how Ned put his paw onto her leg – as if to tell her that it’s okay.
Today, when she and I took him to the airport, Lily-Ann told me “It’s okay Mom. We still love him, we’ll always love him.” She was a lot stronger than I was. I think having that special time with him at the park really did make a difference for her. Afterwards, in the car, she said “I miss him already”. And yeah… I do too. It helps to know that very soon (May 27th) Rooty-Toot is expecting his progeny. It will be nice to have a couple of his mini-me’s running around in no time.
Thanks Emilie, for lending us your wonderful boy. Make sure to give him a big hug from his Saskatoon family as soon as he arrives. Ned is an absolute love, and he’s definitely left a hole here.
I took lots of pictures that day in the park – but the rest will have to wait until I’m finished editing all my other work related shoots first.
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