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Back to Business as Usual.

I’ll admit, I’m still torn as to whether I should keep on blogging about Walt Disney World or go back to life as we used to know it here at TD365.  So what I’m thinking is this;  I’ll write about what I feel like writing about.  Cause, well…  that’s what I’ve done for the last few years here.  LOL  Why change it now.  😉  That doesn’t mean I’m done writing about Disney, it just means I’m going back to writing however my muse pulls me.  Sound good?

Now, I think I’m going to cuddle my sleeping girl for a bit.  Watch a little streaming TV with her Daddy.  Then tuck myself into bed for the night.  I’m missing Bran tonight.  He would have commented on my last post…  and written to me on FB today.  I have a feeling my one FB post would have prompted a good laugh between the two of us.  Losing a much loved friend really freakin’ sucks.  😦

An unexpected bonus…

I have to admit, I was concerned going from having a basement bedroom, where we could block out almost all daylight, to living almost entirely on the main floor of a house.  I have always had a very difficult time sleeping.  Even as a kid – when I’d count that I was getting eight or nine hours of sleep I was counting the time I spent resting, just lying still in bed.  I thought that time counted, I thought everyone “slept” like I did.  Truly only sleeping for a couple hours, and the rest of the time just lying quietly as the mind raced through scenario after scenario, scene after scene, idea after idea, thought after thought…  These days I take a butt load of melatonin to get to sleep, between 10 and 20 mgs most nights.  It’s a large dose, but it’s the only way I’d fall asleep.  Kid kid has a mind like mine, it just doesn’t stop, and if your brain doesn’t slow down you can’t get to sleep, so she takes a 3 mg dose before bed too.

Having all the extra light around us, all the time, I was concerned the effect it might have on my already erratic sleeping patterns.  And there’s the rub…  instead of making things worse?  It’s kinda like someone hit a reset button in my brain.  For the first time in years I’m falling asleep without the melatonin.  I still have to listen to a movie or tv show to quiet my brain down (focusing on one thing stops all the “noise” and lets me drift off), but I did that before in addition to the melatonin.  It’s an odd thing for me not to need assistance to drift off to sleep, but it’s a good thing.  It’s something I’m really liking, and it’s something I never expected.  🙂

It’s Just Home!

As much as I love hitting the road for an out of town dog show, I really do love coming home after one even more.

Traveling is awesome!  Very seriously, I adore pretty much any form of travel.  Road, rail, air…  it’s all good.  I absolutely love going places – and going places with my dog is even better.  And the crazy familiarity of the dog show scene is always grand.  The same faces, the same busyness, the same routine – all repeated in a different place every few weeks is such fun.  I really do enjoy it.

And when you are away, the stresses of home all kinda melt away.  Sure, there are new stresses and things to replace them.  Even away from home I’m crazy busy with a ton to do – and yeah, sometimes I need to be up at 5:00 or 5:30 to be in the ring for 8:30 or 9:00 (which is definitely NOT part of the usual routine)…  but it’s great.

The very best part though?  Is how much being away makes you appreciate being at home.  There really is NOTHING like coming home.  Even before being a mom, I was always happy to be home with Damon and the rest of the kidlets…  but now that I get to come home to my little girl too, it’s even better.

I’m laying in bed right now, with her legs mushed up beside me as I type – almost knocking the computer off my belly.  Just listening to the sounds of the keyboard, the air filter, and her breathing.  This, to me, is home.  There is nothing better.  The dogs are all asleep around us.  Damon is upstairs, probably playing a computer game, with the Parrot chatting at him.  The cat is roaming the stairwell – looking for anything suspicious – and the turtle is sitting in her favourite spot, half in the water, half out.  Everything as it should be.  Everyone well.  Everyone doing what they always do.  It’s just home.

A Starfish in Our Family Bed

I don’t know about you, but I love the “crappy pictures” blog.  It’s a pretty good look inside life as a parent, and has a way of capturing those moments you need to laugh about so you don’t start crying.  LOL  One particular drawing that I picture quite often, that I first saw ages ago now… or, well…  what feels like ages ago in Mommy to a young child time, can be found here:  http://crappypictures.com/2011/06/what-it-is-like-to-not-sleep-at-night-illustrated-with-crappy-pictures.html

Now, I have that link set to open in a new window.  So go take a peek if you haven’t seen it before, and then get your butts back here for the rest of my blog post.  I’ll wait.

See?  This is me waiting.

Are you finished yet?

How about now?

Just about done?

Alrighty then.

Back to me.  😉

Well, when the kid fell asleep last night, as usual I wrote my blog post…  it was pretty boring, but it had been a “sick day” and my brain was pretty much toast.  The girl was still sick today, but I actually got to have a small bath break in the evening while her Daddy and her each played games on their respective mobile devices, next to one another, in the same room, rather than playing WITH one another (I wasn’t going to complain, I needed the break).  Okay, now I’m getting off topic (seriously, I hadn’t had a mommy-only bath in MONTHS, it was SOOOO good…  just me and the only grown up reading material I could find – a Readers Digest from last year).  LOL

Okay, so anyway…  After writing in my blog, the Daddy and I turned on a couple of episodes of Community to wind down for the night.  It wasn’t long before THIS happened:

What it looks like when a four and a half year old "starfishes" across the family bed.

What it looks like when a four and a half year old "starfishes" across the family bed.

And yes…  that is the kid, taking up the entire top half of our family bed.  So, while Amber so perfectly illustrated the baby starfish in her crappy pictures blog, this is what it’s looks like when a four and a half year old starfishes across the entire family bed.

Gotta love it!

Too sick to party? Hope not. :(

I’m afraid that after all of her hard work, kid-kid may just be coming down with something in time for her class’s Valentines Day party.  😦  Today she has a runny nose, and is a little extra wrangy…  Hopefully with lots of fluids and healthy foods we’ll have her on the mend before then.  Poor kid.

On Friday we spend the early afternoon baking and decorating:  cupcakes, of course.  Confetti cupcakes with chocolate icing, and covered in sprinkles, sparkles, and red, white, and pink candy hearts.  We then popped one tray into the freezer and one into the fridge.  We still have to make the cupcake toppers and slide them into their individual bags – but then they’ll be all set.  We’re also planning to do up bookmarks for all of her classmates.  She’s super excited about them, and I know they’ll turn out adorable.  After everything she’ll have put together it would be awful for her to miss out on the festivities.

Damon and I don’t usually exchange anything on Valentines Day.  Instead we buy something for the girl.  After all, we have our anniversary to celebrate one another…  Valentines is about celebrating love, so it only makes sense that we’d celebrate our baby.  🙂  And went out shopping yesterday and again today in search of the right gift (while Lily-Ann was having her weekly sleep-over at her Pop Pop and Grams’ place).  I think we’ve got something she’ll absolutely love.  And thanks to an error at the store, we got it for half price – which is what brought it into our price range.  LOL  Gotta love an error (of course, we didn’t realize it was an error until the price came up differently at the register – but Toys R’ Us honored the price marked on the shelf, so YAY).

Even if the girlie ends up out sick, I’ll make sure that her things are delivered to her class, and she’ll still get a present…  but after all her efforts I’d hate for her to miss out on the class party.  Lots of good vibes, healing energy, and white light her way, if you have any to spare, we’d appreciate it.

My poor baby.  Crashed out on top of the comforter…  We didn’t even make it three pages into our current chapter before she was out like a light.

And yes!  She has a fuzzy red heart-shaped pillow (it’s a total coincidence, we didn’t start reading the Goddess Girls books until after she’d had it for several months, she giggles every time we read about Aphrodite’s pillows).

And again, yes.  She’s wearing a frog prince sleeping mask – which I slipped down over her face after I snapped this shot.

And one further yes.  Like any good Canadian kid should have, she’s got on her Toopy and Binoo jamies.  😉

Poor kid, just wiped right out.

Home from Camp fYrefly

Well…  I got home last night around 7:00.  And crashed at the same time I put my daughter to sleep (I usually stay up for another four hours afterwards).  Then today?  Today I slept.  All day.  I’m sick.  So it’s not just that I was being lazy or that I was feeling depressed.  I’m sick, and my body needs to begin repairs….  so I slept.  A lot.  And I’m super grateful to my husband who took the girlie to the zoo, and then out again shortly after supper so that I could have the multiple power naps I needed.  And yes, I’m now preparing to sleep again.

What a crazy week, and even crazier weekend.  I really do need time to just process everything.  But, I can say two things for certain:  Camp fYrefly Saskatchewan freakin’ rocks!  and I miss my campers and my leadership team.  You guys are freakin’ amazing!!!!  Love you all!

Now, off to bed.

Chicken Pox

Well, we’re still battling our way through the dreaded bock pox.  Poor kid.  At least she got some real sleep last night though.  The couple nights previous came with very little rest – which makes everything harder, but especially so when you are sick.  So I hope you’ll forgive me for the short blog post.  The girlie is resting, so I’d kind of like to be doing the same…  but still lots of work to catch up on.  With her being sick, it leaves me little time for Camp fYrefly or TD Photography business.  She’s my priority, that’s just the way it is (and the way it should be too).

Hmmmm….

Ya know?  Earlier today I had a few things on my mind, all of which would have made good blog posts.  But right now?  I’m beat.  It was a long and busy second half of the day.  And I’m now laying in bed next to the girlie…  typing on my netbook while I listen to her breathing in the quiet  dark.  All I can think of is her.  She may be absolutely exhausting, but she’s amazing, she’s wonderful, and she’s mine.  🙂

Happy St. Pats everyone.  The girlie wore a pretty green shirt with button flowers on it, and her green tutu.  We sang Pangur Ban, and danced around while watching The Secret of Kells.  Haven’t seen it yet?  I’d say it’s about time you did.  We are repeat borrowers (have reserved it from the library a couple times now).

Absolutely Enchanting!

I had actually planned on blogging about some pretty big things that are going on right now politically.  There’s some big stuff happening that both lactavists and internet users should both be aware of…  but you know what?  I need tonight to just recharge.  So I do hope you’ll forgive me.

Instead of taking the time to blog, I chose to sit and look at my beautiful, amazing, incredible, creative, loving, rambunctious, stick-to-it kid.  I know I’ve said it before…  but as a co-sleeping momma I think about it often.  I am so grateful for these night time moments.  When I can just lay beside my awesome daughter, taking everything in.  She recharges me.  She sometimes drains me too.  LOL  But she always gives me so much more than she ever takes away.  I’m a lucky mommy.  And she is my joy.

Sleeping Beauty

 

So… it’s a short blog post.  But I’ve got more important things to do.  Like snuggling with my sleeping girlie.

Sometimes joy is simple…

When I watch my wee girl sleeping, laying in bed next to me, joy is simple.  Nothing could fill my heart more than watching her here, quietly breathing.  Each rise and fall of her tiny chest elevates my happiness a little further.  This type of joy is easy.  This love comes easily.  Some joy, some love, you really have to work at…  but for now, I’m blissfully happy just laying here in the dark with my wee one beside me.

Families who don’t co-sleep may find certain things easier (like couple time for mom and dad).  LOL  But I wouldn’t trade this closeness with my daughter for any of it.  She sleeps soundly knowing I’m right here, and I sleep better knowing she is safe and sleeping deeply.  This, for me, is a natural.

The wee girlie has her own bed.  It’s a loft we built in Autumn.  It’s right above our bed (I even posted a couple times about it here).  And she slept in it for quite a while…  and I missed her while she was up there.  LOL  But as she grows and changes, sometimes  she needs us closer than at others.  And right now, she needs these night times.  It won’t be long until she rolls her eyes when I ask for a hug and kiss, so as long as she wants me close, I’m happy to remain so.

Co-sleeping is worth any tiny sacrifices we may have to make…  but honestly?  Those sacrifices are nothing compared to the rewards it brings.  In a world full of people with sleeping disorders, I know my daughter sleeps soundly.  She  is safe, secure, and attached.  Just as she should be.

Soundly Sleeping Sweetie

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