Posted by Tobi-Dawne
So tonight’s blog post brings you a bit of a pity party. I’m not a happy camper, and I don’t really feel like posting something that’s all nicey nice. I’m not putting on a happy face, and I’m not going to pretend I feel great about things. The fact of the matter is, I’m upset and I’m sad, and it’s my damn pity party and I’ll cry if I want to.
With this darn Eustachian Tube Disorder, I’ve been S.O.L. when it comes to driving. Generally speaking, it tends to be at it’s worst when I’m in a car. I’m guessing it has to do with the pressure inside the vehicle. My ears snap crackle and pop a ton, and I find it disorientating and distracting. I’m also far more likely to hear myself breathing and my heart beating all from within my head. Driving is just not happening these days – which means I haven’t been hitting the shows.
For those who don’t know me well, I spend my Springs, Summers, and Autumns hitting the shows. My youngest sister and I pack up my vehicle and we do road trip after road trip, all over the place going to dog shows. I LOVE handling. I feel at home in the ring, like I belong there. I’ve shared here before about how much I love showing, love everything about showing… and it’s something I sooo look forward to. It’s chaotic and hectic and filled with WAY too much politics, but I love it.
With this ear issue, I haven’t been to a show since this Spring. I’m going a little stir crazy. The one thing that was making it all okay was the Saskatoon show coming up the first weekend of September. It’s a HOME show. Which means I don’t have to go road tripping, I don’t have to drive. It’s a show I can do… and I’ve been clinging to that like a mad-woman.
Today I logged on with the intention of registering Alice, and possibly Marnie too, for the show. Only, I get to the site to discover entries are closed. Yep. They are closed… and I’m close to tears (the only thing keeping me held together is knowing if I break down and cry the girl is going to ask why, and when I tell her that we can’t go to the dog show she’s going to cry too… because it’s one of only two shows SHE gets to show at every year – and like me, she loves being in the ring).
Why am I so shocked considering the show is fast approaching? Well, I get a constant influx of emails letting me know when different closing dates are approaching. That way I don’t miss entering a show that I want to be at. I never got one for Saskatoon. If I had? I’d have damn well got my entries in.
So that’s where we are. I can’t drive to shows right now. I can’t even drive around town, no way I can drive for hours to hit the shows. So the one show I’ve been holding onto attending, the one show left this year that I can still do… and I missed the entry deadline – by almost a week. And yes, now that the girl is asleep, I’m in tears.
I wrote to the show secretary, to see if there was ANY way we could still get in. I explained that I never received the email about the deadline, and how the ETD has made it so I can’t drive to any other shows… but it’s too late. Pat was sorry, but there just isn’t anything she can do. It’s what I expected, but I had to try.
So yeah. Kind of a lousy day.
I miss my dog shows.